He Wanted Me To Trust Him

This week’s News of Grace Blog Author: Kaylah Alicea who is a GMI Missionary to Puerto Rico.

You can read Kaylah and her husband’s GMI Bio HERE.

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These past six months have been a testament to the faithfulness of God in my life and how there are times when He simply calls me to listen and rely on that faithfulness. Let me share a bit of a story with you and as you read my journey may you feel empowered to remain faithful to Christ in the season of life he has placed you in.

Summer here in Puerto Rico is always bustling and busy with groups from the states visiting and doing different ministry projects in the barrio. We also have camp, Vacation Bible School, and themed club weeks. By the end of summer, I’m usually exhausted, but overflowing with gratefulness of all that God has done in and through his ministry here. Then everything comes to a grinding halt. All the teams go home, the interns return to college, the kids go back to school, and there seems to be a deafening silence through the barrio. I then have the privilege of getting back into our fall routine with club and adjusting back to life during the school year. However, something different happened this year. We opened club like normal for August and September and then suddenly monsoon-type rains took over our island for the months of October and November. After living on the island for over three years now, I have never seen so much rain EVERY SINGLE DAY! Because most of our kids walk to club everyday, the rain immediately stopped them from coming and it simply just wasn’t safe for them to be outside through the constant thunderstorms. We would eventually get a little break in the rain for the morning and I would prepare myself to put on club as normal and literally right at 3pm when I was about to open the gate the rains would begin to pour yet again. I began to get very disheartened. We had just finished an amazing summer and I was ready to carry those emotions into our school year. And yet, every day God was simply trying to tell me to wait on Him and trust His faithfulness.

alicea-november-2016-300x300        It was during these eight weeks I also found out I was pregnant with our second child and was still trying to adjust to life with an active six month old.  I struggled to feel as if I was failing because I wasn’t doing the thing I felt like God was calling me to do. Little did I realize I was doing exactly the thing God had called me to do and I simply needed to know that God was still faithful and he would prove that through the continuation of His ministry here in Puerto Rico in His perfect timing.

At the beginning of the year, we re-opened club and to my joy and surprise there were twenty-five kids ready for me to open the gate again. It was in that moment that God reminded me that there are seasons in life and in ministry. I wasn’t failing because God was calling me to rest and trust Him with the outcome through the storm. A few weeks later, I was reading Matthew 14 where God used another passage of Scripture to speak His truths to my heart. In this passage, Jesus had just performed another amazing miracle and fed 5,000 people. People were following him everywhere and His truth was spreading. Right after this miracle, He tells the disciples to get into a boat and cross the lake as he goes up to a mountain to pray. Jesus tells them this knowing there will be a storm that night. The disciples obey Jesus, and are quickly ushered into a storm of ‘perfection’. It wasn’t a storm of ‘correction’ because they had obeyed what He told them to do – He simply was getting ready to test their faith again. This whole passage reminded me of how God had been working in my own life. I had just finished an amazing summer of ministry and God was simply reminding me to remain faithful to the calling He had placed on my life. I had obeyed by preparing and opening club, but God was more focused on where my heart was through it all. He wanted me to trust Him and know that sometimes we just have to sit back and rest as He performs more miracles in our hearts.  And He once again gave me the strength to ride out the storm and see that His faithfulness would be displayed in the faces of those 25 club kids that reappeared on the other side.

Life is full of storms of correction and perfection. My prayer for us today is that we sit at the feet of Jesus and listen to what he is trying to tell us through them. May we remain faithful to His work and trust that His faithfulness will always be guiding us through the storm to the calm waters on the other side.

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